Upset 2

I really cannot explain it, I have just been feeling so alone. I look in the mirror and it takes me a while to find myself. Like I am not there at all. I usually do not have self-esteem issues. I believe in loving and taking care of myself, it just seems so hard to do lately.

I really need a friend who I can talk to and feel connected with. My hear beats, but it beats alone. I am a butterfly friends, but my wings are clipped. If someone has any duct tape let me know, I would like to fly again.

Upset

Oh blog, I have been presented a task that is so much to handle. I will have the support of friends and family, yes, but I cannot believe what has happened.
My father has gotten his way once again. Usually I am so optimistic, but there is no way to vanquish this and to stop him. So now I have to get myself a job to help support my family. This is such a burden though I have to do it. I have to. I am at such a strange place, I cannot cry and I cannot tantrum. I just sit here thinking about what has to be done. A princess must remain composed through everything and she must think positively. So I move forward and keep my chin up. There is much to do.

Oh My and Updates

I have done a poor job on this Halloween edition blog haven't I? Haha. Oh well. What is done is done. I still have not figured out a costume for myself. This is okay though, I will just make myself spooky and take my little sisters trick-or-treating. After all, that is my favourite part of the holiday, watching all the little ghouls run around in their scary personae.

For now I am going to simply update you as far as my life is going as of current. What happened between me and that wonderful girl is we decided to work on our friendship before we delve into a relationship again. This is for the best. She is still just as wonderful as ever and I am happy to have found such a charming friend.

I do not know if I told you this but, I resigned from my place of work. They were not giving me enough hours and the time gaps between working times was so large that I forgot how to do everything. You see, my memory is terrible and I cannot work efficiently if I do not even know what I am doing. Consistent work just suites me best, and so I am searching for a job. Oh wait I just realized that I did already post something about my resignation. Well then I am still looking for a job and if anyone in the Seattle region would like a multi-talented princess on staff I am more than willing to oblige. :P

October really is a sickly month personally. Every year since I was tiny I have always gotten sick during October. For the past week or so I have had the flu and might I say it has taken its toll on me. On the positive side I have lost 5ibs and am closing in on a smaller pant size. This is good because I watch my figure intently and I work very hard to maintain a dainty appearance.

My romantic life is back to lone, this is okay though, I do not complain and I am still perfectly happy. My joy is not dependent on others thank you very much! A princess must live for herself and know how to make herself happy instead of rely on others to bring her said happiness. Frankly everyone should know this and work on this. I think it would do the world a lot of good to learn to satisfy one's self.

My most wonderful news of all is that my artistic block is gone! Completely diminished and I have not been so excited in so long! My hand finally flows and produces wondrous pictures just as it use to. I am so thankful to be able to use my talent again. Art is very important to me and as my grandfather taught me when I was a little girl, "Art will always be my first love." How right he is. I really love my grandfather so much. I get my thinking process from him you know~ Any who, I can draw again and I feel relieved. I really did miss the smell of pencil shavings and clean paper.

Happy

Remember that wonderful girl I was talking about previously? We are dating now. I could not be happier, she truly is wonderful. She is a prince indeed, she treats me with respect and I feel comfortable with her. That is saying a lot considering it is very hard for me to feel relaxed around others. I am not afraid of her judging me or running away, though she has not seen my weirder side (except when I hiccuped a bean...)

I am very excited to see where this goes and I am hoping it goes far. I really like her, I want to see us shine. I have always wanted someone to go through everything with. I really am a handful, I hope she can handle me. Of course I will do my best not to be a handful, just the idea of me being more burden than not is paining. It is okay though. I am not afraid.

More on this later.

Ramblings of a Princess

So this is not a Halloween post, but do not worry friends, I will post one today. I met this charming girl yesterday. She expressed her fondness for me and we have been talking since. I am really enjoying her company, of course I am doing my best not to jump to conclusions or try anything, but I feel something different about her. She is so beautiful and conversationally inclined. Is she a prince? Who knows but I am interested in seeing where this goes.

Also, my work called me today (yes the princess works) and told me that I will be getting paid finally and that I have more working hours. I am very glad for this because then I can pay off the last of my debts and start saving up for random things either for myself or for others. I am very careful to make sure I do not get myself into debts that I cannot pay back. It is important for any respectable person to keep their word and to manage themselves properly. Though it can be struggling for some, I am thankful for my ability to discipline myself.

I wish I could discipline myself into coming up with a collection for my art store. I am seriously lacking inspiration. This artist's block has got me so down. More on this later.

I Am Sorry

I am having a bit of trouble guaranteeing a new Halloween post every day as you see, I am sick and have a lot going on right now with school. I will do my best to keep up with the festivities but please do not be surprised if I miss more days. I am so so sorry, I hate not being able to keep my word.

Trick or Treat Day 2

Time for day two of our Halloween count down! Lets get started.

"Mini-treat bags and tree

Materials:
- Varied 3" x 41⁄2" pieces of fabric (you can use scraps left over from pennant bunting)
- Needle and thread or sewing machine
- Ribbon, string or twine for drawstring
- Scissors
- Black spray paint, branch

Instructions:
1. Fold down long edge of rectangle 5⁄8" on wrong side of fabric. Stitch 1⁄2" from fold to make casing.
2. Fold rectangle in half, right sides of fabric together. Stitch along cut edges (1⁄4" seam allowance), stopping just before casing.
3. Turn right side out. Attach safety pin to drawstring and work through casing. Tie ends of string together.
4. Hang on spray-painted branch." - You can find this wonderful craft idea at womansday.com

And now for a treat! On a side note first, I would like to address something. Some of these ideas are mine and some of them are not. You see, I am providing ideas for you and your friends or family. I provide links to the places where I find these wonderful ideas so that you can explore more in depth and give thanks to the right people for sharing their creativity with the world. Now back to the treats! (:

Blisstree.com provides an awesome idea for crunchy spiders! Not real spiders thankfully (poor creatures) I am going to make some of these to hand out to the trick or treaters.

Now for a spook story...

"Person Trapped In Crypt Turns White Haired Overnight

Urban Legend: A person makes a bet with their friends that they can spend the night in a cemetery crypt and is found in the morning insane with snow white hair.

The Story:
A person is dared to spend the night in a crypt in a local cemetery and is found in the morning totally insane and their hair has turned snow white. This one can vary from biker club initiation, fraternity or sorority initiation or a dare between a group of kids. It takes place usually in an gated above ground crypt. The person is locked in with the dead and left over night. No one knows what actually happens to said person because they never speak again, their hair turns snow white and they go insane.

Origins:
This legend has been told as having happened in various parts of the United States but no true origins can be found. I actually heard this one when I was growing up." - This is another excellent legend provided by halloweenghoststories.com

Trick or Treat Day 1

Hello and welcome! For this month's posts I will be sharing Halloween tricks and treats! A new idea (or two) for every day until the big day. I am so excited, I just love crafts. So let us get started~

Floating ghosts:

A fun way to spook up your house or yard. I do not have pictures and I apologize for that, but hopefully when I am explaining you will be able to visualize. Sorry for the inconvenience!

Materials:
- Helium tank or go to local party store
- Balloons or go to local party store
- Large white plastic bags
- Sharpie or permanent markers
- Ribbon or string
- Paper weights or medium sized rocks

If you have the convenience of a party store, go to the store and have them fill up how ever many balloons that you are wanting. They usually tie the ends off with a ribbon or some string, and sometimes you can get a weight to keep the balloons from flying away. If you do not however, follow these steps;

1. Blow up as many balloons as you want with the helium machine.
2. Tie one end of the ribbon/string to the balloon and the other end to the paper weight/rock.
3. Draw a spooky face on one side of the big white garbage bag.
4. Place garbage bag over the balloon.
5. Enjoy your floating ghost!

Here is an excellent recipe from kidsfunreviewed.com for pumpkin cookies. What a tasty treat, I think I will make some as Halloween approaches~ <3

Now it is time for a Halloween trick~ How about this?

"Person Trapped In Cemetery Overnight Dies

Urban Legend: A person makes a bet with their friends that they can spend the night in a cemetery and are is found dead in the morning in the arms of a graveyard statue.

What It's About:
A person makes a bet with a group of friends that he or she (more often it's a she) can spend the night in the cemetery. The person is found dead in the morning, laying across the arms of a large statue, usually of an angel with it's arms out-stretched. This legend also included a statue of an old woman seated with her arms out stretched, a woman standing with her arms out-stretched. Variations on this are: as an initiation into a gang, a fraternity or sorority or into a high school clique. The dead person is found dead with no sign of injury or has also been found to be sitting on the lap of the seated statue with crushed ribs, presumably by the arms of the statue. But the end result is always the same, the person is dead in the arms of the statue.

Origins:
This legend has been told as having happened in various parts of the United States but no true origins can be found." - I found this at halloweenghoststories.com