Beginnings of a Princess

Ever since I was a little girl I thought I was a princess. I don't mean a snooty little rich girl who gets everything she wants, but a regal an honourable woman who lives a life of simplicity and respect. I would read etiquette books and wear dainty dresses, style my hair in the prettiest ways I knew how, and talk as the princesses did in my fairytale books.

As time passed and I grew older, I stepped out of this phase of wanting to be a princess and met some dark times. I tried new things and personalities. The typical things any teenager does to find oneself, but I never did lose the feeling and appreciation for princess behaviour completely. Having a deep interest in Japanese culture, primarily the more neo-culture, I discovered this fashion called Lolita. Completely in love with the lace and frill and modern princessy look of it all I fell in love. I made wishlists and drew pictures and completely indulged in everything cute or "kawaii." But I still felt disconnected, empty. Simply having these things didn't fulfill something, but what was it?

I spent years thinking that material items would fill that void - in vain. Nothing seemed to quench my thirst, nothing! I made friends and met people who were more educated in the Lolita fashion and Japanese culture, though try as they might, nothing solved my problem. Suddenly one day while looking through my favourite online Lolita stores, I stumbled upon something called Hime Gyaru.

Hime Gyaru means princess girl in Japanese, and to put it short, the fashion is like a less dressy but more gaudy version of Sweet Lolita. Gorgeous hair gorgeous nails gorgeous everything! I researched Hime Gyaru because as any proper fashionista knows, it is always better to be educated in fashion than to jump in blindly! I learned that Hime Gyaru isn't just about fashion but also about lifestyle. They live every day looking and acting like a princess, maintaining that delicate and brilliant disposition as I had longed for as a little girl! You can only imagine how excited this made me.

I continued to indulge myself in internet sites about Hime Gyaru and living the ways of a princess ( take a look at The Princess Portal for an excellent explanation ) and I finally found that one glorious thing that could fill my void. I found not only a beautiful fashion but a beautiful lifestyle that I knew as a little girl, and know now as a young adult, would be perfect for me. This is my life as a princess, my life as an honourable and respectable adult.